I feel like barfing. My ear hurts. I don't know why I am writing in this thing... There really isn't much of a point. Am I doing it because I just need to spew? I'm starting to be paranoid about who reads it. Isn't that fucked up? I'm not paranoid that some stranger witll read it, I am paranoid that someone I know will read it and think I suck or I'm dumb. It's like asking for ridicule. I know, I need therapy. And.. my ear hurts. :(