Weird Random Thoughts

1) I feel pressured into saying "Bless You" after people sneeze. We never did it in my family growing up, so it sounds soooo weird to me... but everyone here at work says it after anyone sneezes. Now, I don't know why, but I pretty much ONLY sneeze at work. Could be the dogs, could be the 70's building, could be the abestos.. who knows? But I sneeze here, and Justin who I share an office with is always sweet and says "bless you" after I sneeze. I say thank you. Not really sure of the correct protocol, but I say thank you.... and then HE sneezes... and it just sounds so weird to say it. And I make myself, and it comes out all embarassed and funky sounding. But I do, because... I feel like I have to. And, I really do wish him blessings, I just don't get the blessing/sneezing coralation.

2) Another person I work with just said something about my mom... like she was alive... and I didn't correct him because I didn't really feel like making him feel bad, and I didn't really feel like drudging all that up at work. But, it drudged itself up anyway, and now I am sitting here feeling kinda kicked in the groin. It's hard not too. It's never too far away from my thoughts. It meaning, the fact that she's gone... and having it brought up at work when I'm not expecting it is sort of hard to deal with.

3) I wonder how many people in the armed forces are Republicans. I wonder if the percentage is super high? I found out my cousin/best friend combo is thinking of joining the airforce and I really don't know how to feel about it all. I mean, it makes me want to puke... but on the other hand she has wanted to all of her life. She has had pictures of fighter jets on her bedroom walls for as long as I can remember , and she is a good pilot already, a Captain even, so I know she'd probably really like it. She told me that she's wanted to as long as she can remember, so who I am I to judge her for that? I mean, I'm trying not to judge. I felt so sad when she told me tho, I can't understand how she can support the war... but I'm sure she doesn't think of it like that. I'm sure she thinks of it like she is defending our country or whatever. I know I need to support her, we've had differing political opinions FOREVER and we forgive it in each other. Our first fight about it was in kindergarden - really - she won that time when ol' Ronny took office. About every 4 years we had explosive fights all my younger years until we grew up and realized all we had to do is avoid each other around election time to avoid the big issues. I don't know. I'm also scared for her. I don't want her to get blown up. I don't want her to get into chemicals that will make her sick, I don't want her hurt. It scares the shit out of me. I know I need to be there for my friend, but damn I hope she is making a good decision for herself.

4) Diet Faygo Redpop, Diet Faygo Creme Soda, and Diet Faygo Grape are the BEST pops in the world. I think I need to go get one now. I'm in a creme soda space. Vanilla just seems more morningy - even tho it's almost noon.