I'm so sick of people dying. I am so sick of life right now. Is this what it's going to be like for the rest of my life? Never feeling like things are just going to be ok? Never feeling that things are peacful or at least... normal? If this is normal, I want out.

Maybe I should reconsider taking paxil.. haha.. I told my doctor that I thought it was important to "feel my pain, and not repress it".. maybe I made that decision a little to quickly.