Tuesday Morning Ponderings

We've moved into a new office building. It's different, different noises and a reconfiguration of offices and the people in them. Different keys, alarm system and we now have a lunch room. It doesn't feel like the same job anymore. I'm doing the same things on the same computer at the same desk, but it feels like a new job. Tuesday mornings are the same hectic and bitchy mindspace. I still am taking the time to blog because I know I am going to be here at minimum 12 hours, a few of them with nothing to do anyway except wait, so I have a few free moments. Or, I will, later. So whatever.

I feel good today. Calm.

Zenned out, if that is a word.

Jeannine, who rocks, really helped me get a few things straightened out in my chaotic & convoluted brain. I love friends. No, I love MY friends. They really do make it or break it, life that is. The times in my life where I just wanted to be done, done living, I couldn't see my friends. They were around, but I didn't have the capacity to recognize them from all the other faces in the crowd. It wasn't about anyone but me, either. Invitations were turned down. Calls not returned. Emails ignored. I do this when I'm feeling crazy. Crazy good or crazy bad. And I really REALLY do love and appreciate those who don't bail on me.

Not sure if I'm feeling my crusty do at the moment. I might shave it all off.