bright side

But on the brighter side... it hasn't taken me long to fall back into oooooollllddd habits. Like. I always took all the garbage in my apartment out on saturdays and wednesdays. And this morning I just thought, omg, i forgot to empty the trash cans on wed... I mean, I haven't done that in ten years. So I jumped up, did it, changed the sheets, mopped the bathroom...

feels good to be a little more normal... and a little manic is nice, too... sometimes..

Living in depression and chaos with no rules for yourself... it's bad. Bad for the head, body, heart & mind.

the downsides to this move are there, of course. And the come on strong. but.

this blog entry is about the bright side. And the bright side holds lots of sparkly treasures like:

Listening to music all day long and half the night.
Having time to think.
Having time to be lonely. (makes sense to me...)
Having time to really contemplate life.
Having time to read.
Having time to groom. (heh)
Painting
Journaling
thinking of obscure names for kittens
figuring out what i like to eat for breakfast
figuring out what color bathroom towels i like
having bathroom towels, washcloths, and bodywash puffs
figuring out what to do on my walls
throwing balls for Nibbler to chase
(Nibbler seems way more relaxed)

I wish I could have gotten it together a little sooner... but drastic times call for drastic measures. It's really true. When you can't pick yourself up out of bed in the morning and think of anything worth hoping for, I suppose it's time for a change. A little shake, a little jolt. A little reminder that we're still breathing.