Feelin' Good

I woke up this morning with a new idea. A whole new set of ideas to be exact. Some are random thoughts about what to do with my apartment, some are about the dark grey wool Ethan Allen couch I want to have some day. Some are about how to manage myself and my time. Some are about my friendships. Some are about my relationships that should be less complicated. Some are about needing to go to payless and find some new shoes - but they are all good. It's a new dawn, a new day, and I YES!! I am feelin' good! I have a lot of work to do. I need to weed my garden. Weed my OWN garden for a change! It's Rosh Hashanah - a brand spankin' new year. A time for inflection and rebirth, a time to scrub my skin til it's just like new. From this day forward, I will plant trees that bear healthy, nourishing fruit. I will think before I act. I will ask myself what road will bring me happiness before I walk down that road. I will be honest, or at least, as honest as I can be without reinjuring myself. And I will heal. From this point forward, I will take pleasure from the present, look forward to the future, and learn from my past. Without dwelling in it. Last night my mom hugged me in my dream, so tight. And I sat on the bank of a reed-filled lake eating corn on the cob. And there were koi swimming all around under the blue sky and fluffy clouds.

I will go to my meetings.
I will paint. I will draw. I will take photos.
I will push myself to try new things that nourish my soul.
I will not dwell in darkness. Or the past.
I will work on healing my wounds.
I will be patient with my new self, like I would be with a new baby.
I will sing, dance and smile every chance I get.